You're really nailing it! I relate to that safe feeling from being held by someone I'm close to and who makes me feel safe when I am not safe so I can sleep. I do have this person, although there's a little over a thousand miles between us and she can't always just grab a last minute flight in the middle of the night to come sit with me and hold me every time I need her. I never ask, but she has done this a few times. What difference it makes. But then she has return to her home, leaving me wondering if this time was the last.